My grades came back a few days ago and I was pretty disappointed. I was worried about failing, but I passed, so I got that going for me at least. But still, I was disappointed in my grades since I studied pretty hard.

So I took 3 classes this past quarter, two of which were general education courses and one engineering course. My GE courses were Globalization of Asian Women and Introduction to Philosophy, my engineering course was Signal Processing. My Philosophy class I took pass/no pass, and I got a pass. The Globalization course was a total joke; no studying at all, barely did any of the reading, a 5 page paper of utter bullsh*t and I got an A in the class. My signals class that I did poorly in at first, I pulled out with a B-.

Yeah, for an engineer, the grades look pretty good, so you might wonder why I’m not happy with them. Here’s why. Two courses are GE and one of which is pass/no pass. To an engineer’s point of view, there is no reason why that the class that is most important out of the three, I wouldn’t get at least an A-. When and if an employer were to look at my transcript and see this, they wouldn’t approve of this quarter and question me about it, expecting a very good explanation for this.

My overall GPA went up, but my major GPA went down and my upper division GPA went down. I feel that my major GPA is the most important GPA. Yes, a simple number should not define who I am. But sadly, industry and employers do not think so. That number is the best and simplest thing they have to do an initial evaluation of applicants.

Yeah, I may be too pessimistic about it. But let’s be real. Any employer who looks at my transcript will, without a doubt, question it and immediately assume that I was lazy that quarter, which is partially true.

My roommate is a psychology major and he recently had to read an article about bullying. He read it and told me about it, and he was pretty angry about it. I wouldn’t say I was angry about it, but I do have some distaste in what was reported. Sadly, I do not have access to the article so I cannot provide the source, and I apologize for that.

To sum it up, the article talked about how society took a look at the subject of bullying after a young homosexual student (if I remember correctly the student was in seventh or eighth¬†grade, so middle school in the US) was severely bullied and ridiculed for being homosexual. After not being able to handle it, he took his life. I don’t recall when this happened (date and year) how. Sorry, this was all what I was told, not read, so I can’t remember a lot of it and I do apologize. Basically, homosexual student bullied and he took his life. Parents and educators started to raise awareness of bullying and began to take measures to stop and prevent bullying. Sounds great right? My roommate and I have an issue with it.

Why now? Why do they finally tackle the problem of bullying seriously after so many years of it existing? Plenty of children have committed suicide because of bullying and not a lot of effort was put forth to solve this problem. My roommate and I came to the conclusion that it was because the student in the article was homosexual.

Before I continue, let me say a few things about my views on homosexuality. I don’t hate it. I believe that homosexuals are people too, and therefore, they should have the right to not be treated any differently than you and I. I don’t keep up with political news, but a while ago there was a huge issue about legalizing gay marriage and I support it. A few years ago, I even wrote a couple papers for my classes defending gay marriage.

Back to the bullying article, my roommate and I were disappointed in the fact that it took a homosexual student to suicide in order for the problem of bullying to be addressed seriously. Maybe it’s because our society nowadays are more sensitive to homosexuals, I don’t know.

I have been bullied in the past when I was in grade school. The bully in my case was white. Of course, I reported it to my teacher at the time, and after questioning the bully, I was ruled out as a liar. In case you didn’t know, I’m Chinese.

Why was my case of bullying not addressed? Why is a homosexual student addressed, but not a Chinese student? Granted, times may have changed since then. And I didn’t go as far as consider suicide over the issue. I feel that bullying has been misrepresented. I’m glad that it’s being addressed, but I’m disappointed in what it took for it to happen.

Recently, in one of my classes, there was a discussion about feminists. What pretty much happened was that a little less than half the class identified themselves as feminists. I was not one of them. I will explain myself in a few moments, so let me rant a little bit about what was said during this discussion.

One of the students said that being a feminist means you stand for equality of gender; simple as that. Feminists fight for equality between men and women on all grounds, and if you do not identify yourself as a feminist, then you do not stand for equality of gender.

That was the basic gist of what she said. As I said, before, I do not identify myself as a feminist, and here is why. My experiences with people who identified themselves as feminists did not stand for equality. They wanted only the benefits of “equality”. They want equal paychecks, they don’t want to be labeled as the obedient housewife, and so forth. These things I can agree with. But these same people don’t take out the trash because it’s a “man’s” job. They don’t want clean the house on the grounds that women shouldn’t be identified as a worker in the home.

I don’t feel that is equality. That’s just taking advantage of their close-minded definition of equality. If a woman wants to be on equal grounds as me, then if she stands on a table and says offensive things, then I should have the right to push her off the table, and her not get angry at me for assaulting a woman. Maybe that’s a little extreme, but I think you get my idea.

Secondly, I have a problem with word “feminist” itself. In American culture, we relate the word “feminine” with the quality of a woman. I’m not an English major so I don’t really know my root words, but “feminist” and “feminine” do sound incredibly close to each other. Therefore, why are we relating “feminist” to “equality”? Just by using the term “feminist” in itself is skewing the bias towards women. Yeah, sure, equality will never be reached. One side will always be represented more than the other, like a game of tug of war that goes back and forth, but if you’re fighting for equality, wouldn’t you try to keep a balance rather than pull the rope more over to your side?

I think that men and women should be equal, with all the advantages and disadvantages of being equal. I think we should ditch the word “feminist” and find a more neutral word. I don’t know, I don’t study language, maybe “equalist” or something.

Thanks for reading this to the end. I admit that this post sounds awful; I just finished a final exam and my brain is half dead right now. I also admit that some of the things I wrote may sound a little extreme. The bottom line is, my idea of equality between genders includes all the advantages and disadvantages of equality.

I got my midterm back a few weeks ago for one of my engineering classes that I’m taking, and my score was a disappointment. It was 20 points below average. At the time, I didn’t think too much about it, because the quarter before, the same thing happened, but I was able to pull an A in the class in the end. But today, I was talking with one of my engineering friends who was also in the class, and now I’m thinking twice.

This friend of mine isn’t a very great student in general. He did things last minute, counted on his friends a lot to finish his homework on time, and even in his general education classes, he’s reeling in pretty low grades. But today, he told me he scored just barely below average on the exam, and that got me really worried.

Last quarter, yes, I scored 20 points below average, but he scored even lower than me. I will say that I feel superior to him, because last year, I worked as his lab partner in one of my lower division engineering classes, and it was very apparent that I was the one doing pretty much all the work. And now, I’m the one trailing him.

I know, it’s not really good for my well being to compare myself to other people, but it’s how I measure how well I’m doing in the class. I don’t really know how else I can do it.

So it’s great that I’m finally worried an all, but what can I do about it with the final exam in a couple weeks? Well, I will admit, I haven’t been spending a lot of time with the material. Last quarter, my grades were pretty amazing for an engineering student, getting an A in most of the courses. Last quarter, I spent a lot of time in the computer labs, spent a lot of time on the materials for the classes. This quarter, because I’m taking mostly general education courses, most of my time has been spent goofing off.

So what I’m planning on doing is that whenever I have a somewhat substantial chunk of free time, I’m going to the computer labs to spend time on the materials. Maybe working through old homework questions, analyze the midterm exam, or reading the book. I don’t want to believe it’s too late to pick myself back up.

So far, in all three of my upper division engineering courses, I’ve gotten an A- or above, giving me an upper division GPA of 3.88, and if it goes down because of this course I’m taking now, I do not want it to drop very far.

So I’ve been watching a lot of anime the past few days, trying to catch up on all that I’ve missed because I’ve been busy. Finally almost done getting caught up. The main titles that I’m keeping up with are Golden Time, Log Horizon, Nagi no Asukara, Nisekoi, and Super Sonico. I guess I’ll throw out some quick thoughts on each one, and I’ll try to do it without giving too many spoilers.

Golden Time was recommended on the FaceBook page of either Kokoro Connect or Sakurasou, I can’t remember. Since I like both of them, I decided to give it a try. At first, I thought it was quite funny, with how the main heroine was introduced. I continued to watch it. I am now on episode 17. From where I’m standing, it is starting to get a bit boring. It seems like they are trying to develop the main characters and their relationships, but it seems really slow at doing so. But, since I’m not falling asleep while I’m watching it, I will continue to give it a chance.

A lot of people exclaim that Log Horizon is a clone of Sword Art Online and is trying to ride off of its success, but I completely disagree. The only thing they have in common is that the characters are stuck in an online virtual reality game. Log Horizon is great. My friends don’t like it because of its lack of action. Log Horizon tries to take a different spin on the “trapped in VR” plot. Instead of trying to escape, the characters are trying to learn how to adapt and survive in the VR world. We are introduced to combat and action early on, but then it moves onto politics, and where I am, some stuff on what I’m learning in my philosophy class. I am currently on episode 20, and I’m sad that it is ending soon.

Nagi no Asukara is amazing. I came across this anime by accident, and it has easily made my list of one of my favorite anime. The setting is beautiful, the plot is quite interesting, and the characters are really believable. At first, the first few episodes were really childish, but it soon got quite dark and deep. I was constantly left wanting more at the end of every episode. I am disappointed that my friends didn’t give it a chance. I have finished episode 19 and I want more.

Ok, Super Sonico. I know. Please. I’m a guy. And an engineer. I’m only human. There’s only so much I can resist. I am very aware of how embarrassing and shameful it is to admit to the internet that I am watching such a thing. Just finished episode 6.

Those are the anime titles I am mainly following up on. Other anime that I’m watching, but not following up so much is D-Frag, Mikakunin de Shinkoukei, Non Non Biyori, ImoCho, Sakura Trick, Witch Craft Works, and Wake Up Girls!
Anime titles that I am planning on starting is Hamatora, Inari Kankon Koi Iroha, and Yozakura Quartet. I really hope somebody subs the Persona 3 movie soon. I’m crawling out of my skin waiting for that… :((

A few days ago, I watched the Bill Nye and Ken Ham debate. Before I begin my thoughts, I just want to put out there that I am not Christian. I think that the idea of an omnipotent, omniscient being is something that, at this point in time, cannot be proven or dis proven. ¬†I guess that makes me agnostic? I don’t know, can’t remember all these terms. OK GOOGLE, DEFINE ‘AGNOSTIC’.

Anyway, I’ll try not to spoil too much. Including the introductions and the ‘audience submitted questions’ at the end, the entire thing took about two and a half hours. I felt that the debate was really bad, almost painful to watch. They went off on so many tangents that I honestly can’t even remember what the original topic was. I think it was evolution vs. creationism or something. Back in high school, I took a ‘Speech and Debate’ class, and some of my teachers enjoyed having debates as a class project, so I have this kind of idea of how a debate should play out. It felt painfully obvious to me that although both speakers were incredible scholars, neither of them were good debaters. Maybe high school debate tournaments are different, but I felt that the structure wasn’t honored. I guess. Not sure how to put it in words… pft engineers… HAHA.

But having said that, I still felt really satisfied with watching to the end. I enjoyed watching two great minds come together and present their ideas. I’m not going to say too much more about my opinions; I don’t want to be bashing others and I don’t feel I’m qualified to be a critic. All I can say is, if you have the time, look it up on YouTube (that’s where I watched it) and take a couple hours out of your day and take a look. I think it is worth your time.

The past couple days, I’ve been taking midterms for my GE classes: Introduction to Philosophy and Globalization of Asian Women (or something like that). Both were essay midterms, and I felt that I did pretty well. My philosophy midterm were two take home essays, one topic on the Elimination Principle and the other on Descartes’s Dream Argument. If you’re curious, you could probably look those up. For my Globalization class, it was a few short answers and an essay on how the Asian body is view in the world. Next week is midterm exams for my engineering classes, and I afraid. Very afraid.

I guess I should start with an ‘About Me’ post. I’ll model it after my abandoned tumblr blog post haha. I’m so creative.

Hello, I’ll refer to myself as ‘B’, for the sake of anonymity and simplicity. My pleasure to have you reading and visiting me probably nonsense blog :D
I am currently a third year computer engineering student at University of California, Santa Barbara (UCSB). I have a large interest in technologies and computing devices, computing devices meaning smartphones, tablets, MP3 players, and of course, your desktop and laptop. I don’t consider myself an expert by any means, but it seems most of my friends think I’m a computer god or something.

I was a Windows person. Windows XP and 7 were great operating systems, but I don’t like where Microsoft is headed with Windows 8 and whatever is next; Blue I think it’s called? Because of my programming classes, I’ve been using Linux Ubuntu for a few years, but now I’m starting to move into it more. Of course, I’ll still be using Windows 7 for my gaming purposes and for whatever I can’t get Ubuntu to do.

Yes! I said ‘gaming’ earlier. I am mostly a PC gamer, not so much console, but I do still enjoy playing on a console. Sony’s Playstation 2 will forever be my favorite console. Nearly all the games I play are on Steam. I also play a bit of League of Legends, but I am absolutely terrible at it.

My mobile platform of choice is Android. I am not an Apple person. In the past, I actively hated Apple products. Now, I’m just like “Oh, you use an iPhone? Ok, whatever.” I got tired of this ‘Android vs. iOS’ war. Or ‘Apple vs. Google’, same difference. To each their own.

I’m also into anime. I’m not crazy about it, but I do watch my fair share. My current favorites are Toradora!, Kokoro Connect, Sakurasou, Acchi Kocchi, and Tengen Toppa. As you can see, I’m mostly a RomCom guy. There a number I’ve watched and quite a few I’m trying to catch up in.

Enough about me, for now. The more I post, the more you’ll learn about me and my tastes, my ideas and opinions. I used to write short stories and stuff, and I’m thinking of picking it back up again, so some of these posts might be my scratch work. Or I might make a separate blog under this account just for that? I’m not sure how WordPress works, still exploring and figuring things out.

Anyway, I used to have a deviantArt account back in high school, which I have also abandoned. HAHA I’m terrible, abandoning things left and right. Anyway, if you’re interested, I’ll leave a link.

http://bmwanz.deviantart.com/

Hi there. I’m somewhat new to blogging. A friend of mine told me that it would be a nice idea if I blogged when I told her I used to write short stories. I started one on tumblr, but I didn’t quite like it. Can’t really say why, just didn’t like how it was. It’s great for leafing through pictures and stuff, but I feel it’s lacking for text-based posts. If you are interested in what my old blog (that ended up abandoning a while ago) looked like, I can leave a link. Until then, we’ll see how this goes.
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http://bmwan.tumblr.com/

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